I’ve been gone from here for a while now. That is partly due to exams and partly due to other things as well which I won’t go into detail here. In the time I’ve been absent I’ve done an abysmally non-existent amount of writing and while I should feel some level of guilt, I don’t. The thing is, as much as I love writing and despite the emotional investment I have in my characters and stories I have never been the sort to sit down and over the period of a few months, write a novel. I write in snippets; I might have a good day or week or even month but then I’ll save the document and it will sit there untouched for six months or more. This fact has made me question a lot of things, including whether or not I am serious about this writing thing, whether I really am aiming to be a published author or whether I’m using writing as a procrastination tool. I think the answer is a mixture of both really. I do really want to be a published author but I don’t think I’m ready to be heading down that path just yet. Despite this blog being initially a place to document the journey from manuscript to publication, I know that right now, my writing isn’t ready and I’m not ready. And that’s ok. So for now, yes, writing may just be a hobby, a way to procrastinate, something I do every now and then rather than every day but I don’t mind. My worst fear, I suppose, is that were I to take this whole writing gig too seriously, I would grow to hate it. I don’t deal well with structure and boundaries, with cage like deadlines and expectations that I do something a certain way. This is the moment when I stop writing the way I’ve been told, the way others write, and begin to explore my own style. I’ve done copious amounts of research while I’ve not been writing but now it is time to forge my own path.
With that in mind, I’ve put my name down for this cycle of ROW80. (You can find out more about ROW80 on their blog.) This was really a spur of the moment decision but we’ll see how it goes. I’m not going to promise you the earth, I won’t be able to make two posts a week about this and my goals will be long term rather than weekly or daily.
So here goes:
Edit Queen of Hearts
It currently stands at about 30 chapters. I doubt I’ll finish edits within this cycle but I hope to edit a chapter a week. By the end of this week I should have the feedback from my betas who were kind enough to review the first seven chapters for me so that will hopefully lead to some major overhauls where appropriate.
At least brainstorm and plan if not write a short story (between 1500-3000 words) every month so by the end of the cycle I should have three done.
Twice a week when I can, no guilt when I can’t.
While I’ve been on hiatus I’ve been dabbling in language creation, taking the mess of language I’d already created and adding structure to it. I hope to write a post about it in the next few weeks because I find it fascinating and I would love to share it with you.